Back To Reality…

I am not myself recently… I keep using the ( =)) )Emoticon<br /> emoticon on YM, without realizing I was unhappy. I am contented with my life and I experience problems like everyone else…. Recently, I began to analyze myself, but my mind just ran in circles.

I am busy with my studies, my various odd jobs and moderating. But it seems, fun lost its part on my life. For the past two years now. I kept working for my studies and for my family. I shared my laughs and cries, my joys and sorrows. But, I never actually felt my own emotions up until now. Sure, I have friends and online buddies to talk to… But, whatever I do… Some ghost of the past keeps haunting me.

Sigh… Whatever… I think I am saying too much. Anyway, who would care about this? My anonymity blocks your sympathies. I am so confused lately… Is this a part of growing up?

Sure, I can relax and lose some steam, but it never solves my thoughts and worries. Sigh… I confessing on this thread is kinda awkward, because I barely post here… Sigh… Anyway… Whatever… Back to reality.



3 Comments so far

  1.   Jacel on November 27th, 2008

    life is a matter of choice. you live it. you’re the master of it. if you want fun, search it. life is too short to waste and you ain’t a robot. [why robot? kc parang my ROUTINE ka. **feel free to correct me on that part. :P** but i believe you are really great tho. ang dami mong ginagawa. no bola intended. waka! waka! x)]

    and dont dwell on something esp. if the juice isnt worth the squeeze. [im no expert. just expressing thoughts here altho yor not asking me to do so. bwakakaka! x)] Godbless.

  2.   ΣphemeraL on November 30th, 2008

    I guess you’re right. Maybe I should add some spice in my life by doing something out of the blue kbdb9z.jpg. Maybe, a sudden trip to the province this coming holiday might do the trick.

  3.   Jacel on November 30th, 2008

    i dunno if you’re being sarcastic or what. well atleast, it’s not obvious. goodluck!

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