I am not myself recently… I keep using the ( =)) ) emoticon on YM, without realizing I was unhappy. I am contented with my life and I experience problems like everyone else…. Recently, I began to analyze myself, but my mind just ran in circles.

I am busy with my studies, my various odd jobs and moderating. But it seems, fun lost its part on my life. For the past two years now. I kept working for my studies and for my family. I shared my laughs and cries, my joys and sorrows. But, I never actually felt my own emotions up until now. Sure, I have friends and online buddies to talk to… But, whatever I do… Some ghost of the past keeps haunting me.

Sigh… Whatever… I think I am saying too much. Anyway, who would care about this? My anonymity blocks your sympathies. I am so confused lately… Is this a part of growing up?

Sure, I can relax and lose some steam, but it never solves my thoughts and worries. Sigh… I confessing on this thread is kinda awkward, because I barely post here… Sigh… Anyway… Whatever… Back to reality.